Scars Remain

She wrote her past on her wrists
And now her present is bleeding.
Questions lying on the floor,
When will the bleeding stop?
Will it ever stop?
But even when the blood is gone
Scars remain.

When It Rains...

It rains.
Inside the house. Outside the house. It rains.
In England. In Spain. It rains everywhere.
It rains. The rain doesn't give a break
And I'm starting to feel soaked.
Rain. Heavy rain. Healing rain.
It rains. It rains again.

The Healing Of Harms

Let it all out, get it all out
Rip it out, remove it
Don’t be alarmed when the wound begins to bleed
Cause we’re so scared to find out what this life’s all about
So scared we’re going to lose it
Not knowing all along that’s exactly what we need

And today I will trust You with the confidence of a man who’s never known defeat
But tomorrow, upon hearing what I did I will stare at You in disbelief
Oh, inconsistent me; crying out for consistency

And You said I know that this will hurt
But if I don’t break your heart then things will just get worse
If the burden seems too much to bear
Remember: The end will justify the pain it took to get us there

And I’ll let it be know
At times I have shown signs of all my weakness
But somewhere in me there is strength
And You promise me
That You believe in time I will defeat this
Cause somewhere in me there is strength

And today I will trust You with the confidence of a man who’s never known defeat
And I’ll try my best to just forget that that man isn’t me

And You said I know that this will hurt
But if I don’t break your heart then things will just get worse
If the burden seems too much to bear
Remember: The end will justify the pain it took to get us there

Reach out to me
Make my heart brand new
Every beat will be for You...for You
And I know You know You touched my life
When you touched my heavy heart and made it light

(Let It All Out, by Relient K)




I'm tired of withstanding my scars. It's time to let the healing begin. I have been trying to postpone this moment as long as I could, looking forward to the healing but, at the same time, dreading the pain it would bring. But I think that the time has come, and now I'm ready to be broken. I just hope that this time everything goes alright, and that, as the song says, "the end will justify the pain it took to get us there."
Scabs are removed, wounds start bleeding, and then He begins the healing.

Videoblog: Día 1 - Bus hacia Leicester

Once again...the same old story...

Y yo me iré. Y se quedarán los pájaros
cantando;
y se quedará mi huerto, con su verde árbol,
y con su pozo blanco.

Todas la tardes, el cielo será azul y plácido;
y tocarán, como esta tarde están tocando,
las campanas del campanario.

Se morirán aquellos que me amaron;
y el pueblo se hará nuevo cada año;
y en el rincón aquel de mi huerto florido y encalado.
mi espíritu errará, nostálgico…

Y yo me iré; y estaré solo, sin hogar, sin árbol
verde, sin pozo blanco,
sin cielo azul y plácido…
Y se quedarán los pájaros cantando.

(El viaje definitivo, de Juan Ramón Jiménez)

In our Creative Writing class, we were asked to memorize and recite a poem aloud in our last class. My professor asked me to choose a poem in Spanish, and I chose this one because it was just what I was feeling at that time...I knew I was going to leave, and when you have to leave a place, it's impossible not to feel mellancholic and a bit sad knowing that you will be leaving that place, and once you're not there, life will be going on without you there. You'll no longer share those moments with those people, your people, your friends; they will keep having wonderful experiences, and you wish you were there to share them with them...but you won't. You'll be miles and miles away. And it's sad, really sad. So yeah, everytime you leave a place it's the same old story...you begin a new life, but life goes on for both you and your friends...so when you come back nothing is the same. I'll miss my friends...and they say they'll miss me...I just hope that I don't lose contact with them, and the wonderful relationships that have been built in these years will continue forever. And whenever I go somewhere, I will leave knowing and accepting the fact that while I'm away the river of life will continue its course...but when I come back they'll still be there for me, and I for them...with more milleage, more mature, with more experiences on our backs...but together. =)

This song goes for all of them:

3x1

God will save you, boy
you just have to believe
that beautiful things will come from broken times
just like these, just like these

God could save you, girl
in this desert time of need
just lay your ashes down
in hope of what you'll receive, you'll receive

and it's ok to cry, it's ok to cry
it's ok to wonder why
and as your tears fall down, they heal the ground
a place that once was dry
it's ok to cry

God will save us now
let His presence bring us peace
lay your burdens down
let them fall at His feet

and it's ok to cry, it's ok to cry
and it's ok to wonder why
and as your tears fall down, they heal the ground
a place that once was dry
and it's ok to cry

your fears are great in your mind
your heart just aches for a sign
but there is hope and there is grace
in these grey skies

and it's ok to cry, it's ok to cry
it's ok to wonder why
and as your tears fall down, they heal the ground
a place that once was dry
it's ok to cry

(Ok to Cry, by LaRue)


[It's Ok To Cry, by Amanda Wilkinson]


Hush little baby, don't you cry
Daddy's gonna sing you a lullaby
Everything's gonna be alright
The Lord's gonna answer your prayer tonight
Hush little baby don't you cry
Daddy's gonna sing you a lullaby
Everything's gonna be alright
The Lord's gonna answer your prayer

Last night I had a dream you was the homecoming queen
Today you're 18, happy birthday Irene
Quit school, you had to drop out to raise your little child
Doesn't seem to be anyone around
You got to reach up to touch rock bottom
The powers that be keep you downtrodden
Daughter of Zion, I heard your prayer
Just cast your cares and please beware of snakes
They come in all shapes and sizes
Tempt you, put scales on your eyelids
Don't waste your sorrows
They'll give you strength...tomorrow
Your Calvary's about to come so
Keep your head up, don't you ever let up
This storm will pass you be ready for the next one

Hey little girl with the pressures of the world on your shoulders
Don't say that it's over
I heard your prayers, just cast your cares
And I'll be there so don't you fear

Hush little baby, don't you cry
Daddy's gonna sing you a lullaby
Everything's gonna be alright
The Lord's gonna answer your prayer tonight
Hush little baby don't you cry
Daddy's gonna sing you a lullaby
Everything's gonna be alright
The Lord's gonna answer your prayer

Irene I carried you when you was too weak to walk
I took to you when you gave your heart to God
Faithful and true, that's what I'll always be to you
Believe in you, believe in Me and these mountains have to move
You have dreams and aspirations
I knew you before creation
Your foundation's solid
I will give you a palace, restore your soul
You'll be up for any challenge
Many storms are on the way better sharpen your faith
Count the cost, take up your cross
And wear it every day
Rest in Me and I will give you strength
Blessed is she, Irene who seeks my face

Hey little girl with the pressures of the world on your shoulders
Don't say that it's over
I heard your prayers, just cast your cares
And I'll be there so don't you fear

Hush little baby, don't you cry
Daddy's gonna sing you a lullaby
Everything's gonna be alright
The Lord's gonna answer your prayer tonight
Hush little baby don't you cry
Daddy's gonna sing you a lullaby
Everything's gonna be alright
The Lord's gonna answer your prayer


[Irene, by tobyMac]


I wanted to write something, but I don't have time, so...I'll leave you with these 3 songs =]

Everything In Nature Reminds Me Of You

You are my sun
My reason for motion
My fuel and my light.

You are my sky
A background of colour
That brightens my life.

You are my storm
The chaos that controls me
My perfect wild side.

You are the foam
Of waves that surround me
When I need a hug.

You are my spring
Of pure living water
For you blooms my heart.

You are my smile
The joy in my sorrow
The moon in my night.

You are my star
The guide of my footsteps
For you I'm alive.


(and I could go on, and on, and on...). =]